Soo Ummm...

Yeah I know I was supposed to follow up with the Oscar thoughts and what not, but its been too long to still care. I've been increasingly busy with some major projects. So far, I'm managing to stick to a lovely time managed system that allows me to get my work done without losing sleep, my sanity, or quality. So if things like blogging, tweeting, facebooking, and downloading have to take a back seat. C'est la vie!

Quick Post-Oscar Tidbit

I can go to bed knowing that I can still dream of going to the Oscars and not risk it being too late and all the real artistry, class, timelessness, and grandeur of it all has died...

Thank you 81st Academy Awards (sans the whole Hugh Jackman-Beyonce number). 

P.S. I FULLY endorse "Slumdog Millionaire"! If not for the film itself, for the sheer adorableness of the pint-sized cast members that got to come to the Oscars and experience such a wonderful night! Love that movie!

More thoughts on the night in its entirety to come...

Week One Roundup

I have survived initiation into the P90x club and made it through my first week of the classic program. I must say that on day 1, I thought you had to be mentally unstable to willingly do these workouts, but I'm already feeling improvements and am converted to the light. 

This stuff works, BUT ONLY if you are TOTALLY committed to it and you give your ABSOLUTE BEST EVERY TIME. I quickly learned there is no room for punking. 

Days 6 & 7 are my favorites thus far. I'm a former martial arts student, so the Kenpo X DVD was like recess on 'roids. It definitely worked up a sweat, but I was loving every minute of blocking, punching, and kicking 'til I fell over. Then of course is the X Stretch. My favorite because its also the easiest (LOL. Hey I love a good workout, but I also love a good rest). Its still a challenge, but I don't have to have 911 on speed dial. And I'm really looking forward to increasing my flexibility and functional ability. 

That said, I'm now excited to start week 2. I've got my bearings and I'm gonna keep on pushing play...

Push Play

I'm going for it. I'm checking it at the door. Everything I thought I knew about myself is being wiped clean in order to make room. No excuses, no more running (well, not away), no more hiding. Day 1 of Dante's Inferno is upon me. I will now eat, drink, sleep, and breathe P90x for 3 months. 

I'll be keeping 30 day progress reports, and I'll definitely probably be posting on how I think the makers of this program lost ALL their minds and are really on a mission to kill off their customers (LOL...but not really). 

Like Tony Horton says, its time to "Bring It".

Heal Gotdangit!!!!

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So "Neutral" has been making an effort to step his communication game up and bit lately. Trust me, this is not a cause for celebration. Something that is requisite for any relationship to properly function is no note-worthy thing (especially when its AFTER the fact). But I digress...

"I do miss you and think about you a lot....I just wish things could've went a lot different. If I don't get a chance to finish what I started...I hope whomever that blessed man is really treats you the way you deserve to be treated"

"I hope so too. And I hope you find what you're looking for"

"Well, I'm not looking and what I had with you is what I want...I'm sorry for neglecting you"

"I'm over it"

"Well, I'm just apologizing cause...I'm always going to have that what if feeling. Getting over it isn't something I could just do"

Is it just me or do people become sadistic when you try to do the right thing and cut ties? Why must one insist on pushing the matter? I resigned because he couldn't get it together, in several respects. He has yet to make any effort toward progress, but insists on holding on to notion of a relationship when we both made it clear that something has to change for it to work (and it wasn't on my end).

You can't keep tuggin' on the cords and tubes when its hooked up to a respirator, let it be! 

I REFUSE to be the Pinocchio to his Gipetto and let him string me along, popping up whenever he dang well pleases with little reminders of what was in hopes that I continue to hold out until he gets it together. I've got too much to live for than to spent it living for someone who's not living for themselves.

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The New Arbor Day

Forget turning a new leaf. I'm digging up the roots and planting a whole new tree.

I have to.

I'm realizing how much better (and somewhat easier) my life would be if I just did right the first time.

I didn't really appreciate my upbringing in the church until I found myself in undergrad putting my faith on the back burner for the social scene, being the super student, or just graduating. It took me a while to notice, but the further and further away I got from my spiritual life, my natural life became progressively harder. These weren't the same as the trails and tribulations of the faithful. These were just plain unnecessary.

So I've made the decision to stop the foolishness and get my act together. Permanently. 

Now, I'm not gonna wake up with a heavenly glow surrounding me, but I will be a new creature from this point forward. I'm chucking the "old" me out like a roommate that skips on rent. I'm going back to being a regular at my place of worship and taking personal responsibility to building my spiritual relationship and my faith by studying more and living what I'm learning.

And for those who DOUBT my sincerity or success, all I have to say is this:

From a physical standpoint, I've been pretty darn blessed. Financially, education, health, friendships, and family dynamics are significantly above the margin. I don't say this to brag, but to prove a point. I ride pretty clean, I have an affinity towards higher education, I have a lovely corporate america career, multiple talents and skill sets that make me a versatile person and plans set in motion to be an entrepreneur (like real plans, not just saying it).

And thats when I was tripping. Now thats attributed to the fact that I have a wonderful mother and father who is deeply rooted in faith and their spiritual lives, thus much of that covering is passed on to the children. I've always known better, but I allowed outside pressure to undermine what was instilled in me. But I've always been a child of God.

Now imagine when I complete the puzzle and strengthen that critical area of my life that is the spiritual. What makes you think, at this point that other's opinions are going to affect me now. Many people can't handle when they see their peers on the verge of being abundant or being abundant when they can't seem to figure out how to get there with you. So instead, they'd rather you suffer with them. Well, I was doing just fine before, but now I'm going for better. 

Encourage or sulk in the corner while I claim mine.