Heal Gotdangit!!!!

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So "Neutral" has been making an effort to step his communication game up and bit lately. Trust me, this is not a cause for celebration. Something that is requisite for any relationship to properly function is no note-worthy thing (especially when its AFTER the fact). But I digress...

"I do miss you and think about you a lot....I just wish things could've went a lot different. If I don't get a chance to finish what I started...I hope whomever that blessed man is really treats you the way you deserve to be treated"

"I hope so too. And I hope you find what you're looking for"

"Well, I'm not looking and what I had with you is what I want...I'm sorry for neglecting you"

"I'm over it"

"Well, I'm just apologizing cause...I'm always going to have that what if feeling. Getting over it isn't something I could just do"

Is it just me or do people become sadistic when you try to do the right thing and cut ties? Why must one insist on pushing the matter? I resigned because he couldn't get it together, in several respects. He has yet to make any effort toward progress, but insists on holding on to notion of a relationship when we both made it clear that something has to change for it to work (and it wasn't on my end).

You can't keep tuggin' on the cords and tubes when its hooked up to a respirator, let it be! 

I REFUSE to be the Pinocchio to his Gipetto and let him string me along, popping up whenever he dang well pleases with little reminders of what was in hopes that I continue to hold out until he gets it together. I've got too much to live for than to spent it living for someone who's not living for themselves.

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